Monday, October 24, 2016

RP: A Day of Errands Today Was a Day of APPRECIATION of My Efforts by Wilmington Citizens / Haston Caulder Might Be TOTALLY Melting Down:

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Haston Laverne Caulder looks this "consciousness" tonight -- and MOST nights (and all day if he's not working).

But to begin with, I got a haircut and oil change, which given the lines both places, took all afternoon. THAT gave me the opportunity to talk with a LOT of people, both employees and customers, and given my FAR more relaxed self about it all (and the GROWTH of the impending DOOM for many of the worst Republicans -- and hence my narco-trafficking, White Supremacist wealthy Kenan relatives associated with UNC Chapel Hill -- and my mother).

Progressive and Conservative is NOT the dividing issue -- Wilmingtonians ALL are sick of the Government Sponsored (and/or Protected), Narco-Trafficking -- and they ALL know it is largely via and protected by many of the Christian congregations here. Born-Again "Jesus People" are FED UP with the Christian Drug Mafia, and how it RUINS THEIR REPUTATION AS CHRISTIANS.

And so many of them very seriously THANKED ME for what I am exposing, shaking my hand -- MANY the types that in MY prejudice, I would NEVER have expected them to show me support!!!

I tell them ALL that I am HAPPY TO DO IT -- and best is that I have NO DEPENDENTS, spouse or boyfriend, and I DIVORCED my immediate family, who all REMAIN DIVORCED from me, NOT A SINGLE ONE OF THEM CALLING ME FOR YEARS (+/-).

Therefore I ONLY put my own life and welfare AT RISK.

If my brother or sisters -- or nephews (but not niece who has been too young), gave a DAMN about me, they would at least occasionally call or email me. Not a single one of them has -- except Mom, and I deal with her now because she has LOST ALL HER POWER of lying to Doctors and Law Enforcement -- and in fact the DRUG MAFIA (well documented in this blog), have worked DIRECTLY with my Mom -- she having MANY long phone conversations with several who held me CAPTIVE in Mexico, including Benjamin Shields and his "" and related sites as reported on CNN TV, and "Sonny" (Jimmy Humberto Montaño Prieto).

Just now, I found one of my BEST postings on Ben Shields and OTHERS was REPUBLISHED by another organization here: 

Anyway, Haston claims to have had NOTHING to do with lowering the blind on the front door (same is true of the landlady and maintenance man), and then Haston suggested that Darrell Brutout might have duplicated his keys and has come in and ALSO dropped the Ethernet splitter on the floor.

Darrell is in JAIL, and NO ONE is that stupid, to let themselves in WHILE Haston and I are here, asleep -- and NOT steal any of the easily salable things easy to find!!!

Now, you need to know that Haston claimed that coming home from work today, some guy INTIMIDATED HIM into smoking marijuana, but he didn't smoke that much. That makes NO SENSE to me, and he did NOT seem stoned to me on pot. I really don't believe he's smoked it any other time since he moved in about three months ago. 

I DID learn that the FIFTH prescription drug that Dr. Allen Van Dyke has him on -- the one he carries to work and uses around the clock, is Neurontin, but I have no idea how it is prescribed or how many mgs. his pills are.

And then tonight, he asked me if Darrell Brutout has had any GUN CHARGES against him that have been added (no), and said that he knows where Darrell's gun is buried in another part of town, and that he -- Haston -- REALLY, REALLY, wanted to buy it from Darrell a couple of months before moving in with me -- to SHOOT SOMEONE.

Darrell wouldn't sell it, but with Darrell in JAIL, Haston could now go dig it up.

And then, after telling me that, he told me he can't sleep well (so would take MORE drugs, I assume), since he had a dream about using a gun a few nights ago. And then he would ONLY go on and on about all this GUN STUFF and nothing else.

I TRIED explaining that it was just a DREAM and was NOT real, which he KNEW as soon as he woke up, and if he CAN'T think about anything else he needs PROFESSIONAL HELP, not me. He said I'm his only friend, so I HAVE to listen to him tell this over and over, and I said that as his FRIEND, I would listen to stories of the "girl" (although 43, women are just "girls" to him), whom he can't seem to interest -- or one he thinks is cheating on him, and "normal" problems like that. As a FRIEND I have an obligation to tell him WHEN I think he needs professional help that I am NOT TRAINED to give, nor will I wade in with possible BAD ADVICE.

This really angered him, but I left to get back to my work -- writing -- and he DOES respect that.

More and more Haston is NO LONGER watching movies on TV, but listening to a "Gangsta Rap" station, and so LOUD I've had to close doors between here and his room -- which I NEVER had to do before. He told me the reason he LIKES IT is that they "YELL about girls' pussies" -- and he really likes that. 

nd then just a few minutes ago, he silently delivered the following note to me which I will add here verbatim, errors and all:


I am very sorry that I opened up to U. I didn't think there would be a controversy. It came out wrong and I think I was looking for some support or understanding, maybe a Friend, I don't even have one real friend to turn to, I sorry if I do hurt. I do care very much about People and the world. If you think theres any god out there please ask him to send me a friend. I'm here for you and I will not put my problems on your plate anymore.


And now, at 9:45 PM, he has turned it all OFF and gone to bed, as conscious as a BAD DRUNK -- but on the pills he is prescribed. No emergency at this moment.

It seems to this amateur observer that he might be 'Criminally Insane", but he's gotten SO FIXATED -- especially the last several days -- on these things, that he IS (when sober or near it), a DANGER TO HIMSELF AND OTHERS.

Tomorrow, I'll see about getting him COMMITTED FOR OBSERVATION, first discussing it with his Probation Officer, Mike Martinez.

I also learned that his job's last day is likely to be this Wednesday, and his current employer is STILL SHORTING HIM HOURS, so between the ANNOYANCE and ANGER over his powerlessness over that -- and fact that he'll have to find a NEW JOB -- additional pressures on him CONTINUE TO BUILD.

Really, I NEVER expected him to smoke marijuana -- it is SO the one thing he has always been so proud that he quit.


Late this afternoon, I got a text message on my phone from (910) 816-1613 (which shows to be a number others get harassment calls from).

"Lindsey Moore just recommended you check out your photos on Ever. Link expires tomorrow: http://app,"

Time stamp: 10/24/2016, 5:00 PM

1. I did NOT check that link, nor do I CARE what might be there -- not likely pictures, but Computer or Phone Corruption.

2. "Lindsey Moore" is the name of the person also calling himself "Mark Lindsey", who contacted me via, claiming to want to date me and even described in detail some sexual things he likes to do.

Mark Lindsey Moore is first reported here (scroll down to the hot naked guy holding a towel strategically)

And then MOREafter he stood me up, but had spent nearly an HOUR with me on the phone -- debriefing me for either the CIA or simply the Christian Drug Mafia 

Well, I'm GLAD I sleep well and am smart and alert enough to fear NOTHING unnecessarily -- LOL!!!

Gee, I wonder WHO will get THIS!!!


RP: Whilest Republicans Are WAKING TO REALITY, and Haston Caulder III Faces His Future . . .

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“These young people naturally grow up with ideas different from ours, for they are born for times when we shall no longer be here.” 

― Émile Zola, Work

If I had had this meme half a week ago, I'd have sent it to "Testosteroni", however, yesterday, I had BOTH "Old Testo" and my mother doing BELLY LAUGHS -- HA!!!

I'm still somewhat confused about what Haston is doing with his life. This morning, I found an old Ethernet splitter I'd used in Georgia years ago -- in the center of our laundry floor -- and my box of old cabling and accessories for computers, cable, audio and video had been pulled out and rifled through. Haston has NO REASON to have any use for any of those things at all.

And this morning, I checked the two black boxes in a corner of the downstairs public hall (they've sat there for about four months), and found that one is a wifi router, the other an old Western Digital external hard drive that matches the one I THINK is still stored in my things, but I haven't bothered looking. There was also a detachable and detached power cord -- with the type plug that is compatible with the USA, but different and I've only seen on appliances sold in Mexico, so COULD be an old one of mine.

These things have sat there LONGER than Haston has lived here, so HE had nothing to do with them.

The OTHER odd thing I found is that someone completely lowered the shade on the front outside door. It has NEVER been lowered before, so I suspect it was the CHILDISH behavior of Haston when he got so ANGRY at me for NOT employing his HOMO-WHORE buddy Rob -- sent over by The Anchor Church (on the barge), yesterday.

MORE here 

Woody White (whose name translates in MY mind to "Frisky, Sex-Crazed Caucazoid"), is up for re-election as a Republican member of the New Hanover County Commission.

In an early tabulation, Mr. White had garnered more than HALF the total donations to ALL SIX who are on the ballot for three positions. Democrat Julia Boseman had then gotten the NEXT largest haul of cash. So it was no surprise to see that Woody's TV ad has the HIGHEST production standards by far of ALL local ads I've seen.

The PROBLEM is, that while he is driving around various areas of Wilmington, they all look VERY PROSPEROUS, and instead of mentioning issues that Wilmingtonians are concerned about: Narco-Trafficking, Government Corruption, Education, Safety, Pollution by current industries and those wanting to come in, Woody EMPHASIZES "saving money" and vowing to cut waste.

That's a GOOD THING, but is code for WELCOMING POLLUTING CARBON-BASED energy activities and industries not having to clean up their waste.

And THAT is not even a HUMAN SMILE -- LOL!!!


1. "IT'S ABOUT TIME" Department:

Scott Kenan shared a link.
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Sheldon Adelson bought the Las Vegas Review-Journal for $140 million last year.


When Pat McCrory first ran for governor of North Carolina in 2008, he campaigned as an "outsider." 
From public interest and environmental groups, he's earned another labelBig Energy's governor.

Across the country, few politicians — especially at the state level — have been as generously backed and politically intertwined with energy interests as North Carolina Gov. Pat McCrory.



Buddha was right

Our lives are shaped by our minds. 

We really do become what we think

The good news is that it is never too late to begin carving out a new concept of ourselves if we don’t care for the shape our life is taking — you are a thought sculptor and your creation starts with your next thought

What shall it be? Sharpen your tools and go for it.

Scott Kenan shared a link.
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What Moonlight does, ultimately, to great effect, is re-envision manhood as a space where vulnerability and imagination are acceptable.